Slowly going the way of the Buffalo...

I remember hearing that title of one of MxPx's albums. I used to listen to that album alot. Good times.
I am SLOWLY starting to feel better. It has been a day by day thing. I am trying not to get my hopes up too much here because a few weeks back I had a brief trend of a good 3-4 days. After that I went back downhill. I'm praying this time its for good. I have lost a few pounds, but no where near what my target weight is. I hope to combat this with more exercise and a better diet. I was *cough cough* FORCED to cheat last week when I went overtown for school. I know its much easier eating out of your own fridge where you can choose to eat better. On the mainland it seems like I only have the option of the choice of a number 1 or 5. UGH. Anyways.

I read some awesome news of new music in the works for TOOL. I'm stoked. They are hands-down the best band I have ever seen live. Maynard really knows how to own the crowd.

Until next time.
-M

illness amongst us...

So it seems like the past month has been that of a very, very hard one. I have still been dealing with my dizzy issues. Next doc appointment is next Friday. I hope this one has some promise, but I will try and not get my hopes up too much. I have alot of my previous 5 doctor bills coming in left and right while none of them have been able to correctly diagnose just what the hell is actually going on with my body. UGH. Frustrating.
But just as I start playing my small invisible violin, I see just how little my petty problems are. My father has a bad back infection from a previous surgery he had. He had to be admitted into the hospital and underwent another surgery to remove all the previous infected hardware. During his stay he also found out that he had pneumonia. Wonderful. The back surgery is done and he is scheduled to come home today. I know he is happy to be home with his dog. I owe a big thanks to my friend of many years- Mr. Curlee. I cant thank him enough for taking the time out of his day to drive my mom around. That's the other issue- my poor mother is still trying to recover her sight in her left eye from a surgery she had over a month ago. She is not able to drive, and really depends on my family to get her around. Speaking of getting around- my brothers transmission in his car seems to be failing. Wow- when it rains, it pours- right???
Today I am @ work, with my cohort Justin. We are going to be putting in a power-pack into our biggest engine. I need the overtime, and I know that he does now as well... He's gonna be a dad! Haha, I am very much stoked for both him and his better half. Cheers!
Anyways, onward with this day...

Suck...

This past month of my life has been one that I will remember. I have really been struggling with some sort of dizziness issue. I have been to 5 doctors so far, and not one of them has been able to pin-point just exactly what is going on. I'm praying for an answer this Friday when I go back to my internal medicine doctor and do a fasting blood test. This will hopefully tell me if I have hypoglycemia or not. I have been in such a moody slump, I can't imagine what its like for my poor family to deal with me. I feel like I have not been around to be a good father, husband, or friend lately. I have really tried to improve my diet, and thus far it seems to be slightly better. I just want some sort of definitive answer on what my body is doing, and how I can correct it.
-M

I know what its like...

to struggle with ones inner demons.
I have had anxiety issues lately, mostly due to the fact that I have possibly had hypoglycemia. I want to put all of this in the past. My thoughts are horrid, and I want to stop being dizzy. My poor wife has been dealing with a moody spouse for almost a month now. She is such a strong person.

Athlete's foot

I have THE worst case of athlete's foot known to man-kind. This really is disgusting to me. I shower daily, have changed my socks 2-3x per day, used three different ointments from the pharmacy, and dunked my feet in hydrogen peroxide (ouch)
Gonna try and go to the Avalon Clinic later today as a walk in. Crap. This is my last resort.
Why am I falling apart??? I'm still dizzy, and have really changed most of my diet around for the better. I haven't had a soda, beer, energy-drink, cookie, etc for three weeks now. What is going on????????????

what the hell is wrong with my body??

I have been terribly under the weather lately. I have been to a few doctors, all for what I'm calling "Dizzy spells followed by high anxiety". I have never had a panic attack up until a few weeks ago. They are HORRIBLE. I don't know whats wrong, but throughout the day, I am getting these dizzy spells, some so strong that I have slight balance issues. This is not good. I have had an EKG on my heart- that went well. I have had an MRI on my brain, all seemed normal there (even if my wife says I lack that part all-together). I am now having a basic hearing test Monday morning to then be able to go to a ENT doctor. I hope that this ear, nose, and throat doc can finally pinpoint where my problem lies. I have been talking with various friends and family and they are suspecting the inner-ear. That is where a problem could affect ones balance.
Lord, grant me the patience do deal with this horsecrap. I want to be a father, mechanic, and friend again. This is not fun.

MGMT

Interesting new cover of the upcoming MGMT album which is scheduled to drop on April 13th. The album is named "Congratulations".

I've enjoyed a few of their hits. They have that almost annoying, but catchy pulse that can get stuck in your head hours later.